at the 6th year of my medical schooldays…

at the 6th year of my medical schooldays…. 
things went cuckoo a bit… not in a bad way, just not quite the right way :p

at the 6th year of my medical schooldays…
i want to make the best out of everything. Maybe it is not feasible,  but i want to try, at least

at the 6th year of my medical schooldays…
I want to make sure i’m taking with me the knowledge, which is what i came here for in the first place.

soon a full-fledged doctor with a M.D. permanently associated to the back of my name

“i’m sorry, but i’ve tried my best…”…am i able to say these phrases san regretto?
(okay, don’t get me wrong here. I’m not saying that those words are gonna be my “most frequently used” ones. I’m just saying, considering the circumstances, am i really well prepared to take on the title Dr.Yip in less than, say, a year from now?)

Don’t ask me why i like to stressed myself.. I have a valid point, rite? I mean, hey, u can talk all u want, but have it ever-crossed your oh-so happy-go-lucky mind that life ain’t really that all that easy going?

So,
- don’t say i’m too serious when it comes to study! i’m just trying my best.
- Don’t mind me keeping to myself. (no, it is not PMS; no, i’m not bad-mood either) I’m just felt a lil’ declined to be too relaxed
- Don’t be mad at me, if i always put patient before anyone else. It’s just my instinctual reflex

 at the 6th year of my medical schooldays…
I want to take with me fond memories of this place (despite it being said many times, to be the worst place ever). I’m sure being in Moscow will be an important chapter of my life. It’s my tale. So, i’ll take my time visiting some interesting place here this year.

at the 6th year of my medical schooldays…
I want to savor the frenship with the ppl i met here. Coz i’ve always enjoy making frens. (though i can’t say the same or wether not others enjoy making frens with me :p) No, seriously, i am not so easy to be taken in afterall. Perhaps it’s my serious attitude. Perhaps is that thick air of coldness that lingers in my presence. Perhaps it is the pressure i tend to make ppl feel. Perhaps it is my words that never comes out rite. Perhaps it is my overly un-amusing joke. Perhaps it is me being unfrenly.

But trust me on this: I’ve always been sincere.

at the end 6th year of my medical schooldays… marks a new path to be written.

Untitled Autumn

I am in my bed resting my overly exerted mind. The chaos of the day seems to be potent enough, that i couldnt have done anything else had i not stop and give myself a break. A nap seems to be rational for me.

Too bad my troubled mind kept me awake. so, i slowly rolled over to the edge of my IKEA double decker. Being just next to the window, i could catch the view outside. Stooping over, i quietly watch the tiny humans moving seemingly aimlessly. Here from the 8th floor,the people outside didnt looked too different from some wandering ants.

the breeze and the swaying trees seems soothing.

Despite the time showing 7pm, it is still rather bright outside. It is autumn now in Moscow. It is marked vividly by the yellowness everywhere. The season itself makes everythings seems to move slower this evening. Supposingly, it give an overwhelming sense of serenity.

but here i am, lost in my thought, thinking of nothing in particular. It felt as if that I’ve been disconnected from my inner self of late. An uneventful news brings me no more than surprises, my inner safety mechanism triggered, and now locking me isolated. There is no way to recall what were those troubling thoughts are as of this moment.

Yet, i find no peace.

How ironic. How sarcastic.

睡眠101

最近生活又开始有点颠倒。可能是季节的转变，人容易变得疲累。很时常，随兴地就跑去睡。

睡眠是很重要的生理程序。睡眠让器官进入休息状态-也就是放缓metabolic activity，增加细胞组织的寿命。好的睡眠可以确保清晰的头脑运作，加强记忆力。而且，正常的睡眠能协和荷尔蒙失调。这可避免荷尔蒙失调造成的局部 积肥现象。呵呵，相信现代俊男美女很关注这一点吧？（甭说阿yip 没提点你们噢！）

对我来说，睡眠是有减压的功能。因为当心情不好的时候，只要大棉被盖过头，醒过来又是新的一天咯！（没错，新的一天并不代表会比昨天好。可是我先天性抱着期待的心情去看每一天，所以醒来总会比较开心。）

话说回来，最近因为睡眠时间太随兴，难免大白天也照样赶去见周公。可是说实在的，我睡得并不太好。睡眠素质变差的原因之一，就是我房间的光线太大。

好几遍我逛街都会留意哪里可以买到那个睡觉用的眼罩，可惜没缘。每当那仅仅32瓦斯的灯光在我尝试入眠的时闪得特别灿烂，我心里暗地下会想，如果有眼罩就不用受这种比皮肉之苦来得更苦的苦 :p 如果有人免费送上，就简直 perfect 啦！

说真的，睡眠不好很大条。心情会随之变差。最近连叽都笑不出来 

希望接下来，周公的 appointment 没那么密，多给我陪他聊聊天。

"milosci od pierwszego wejrzenia" - poem by Wislawa Szymborska

这样的笃定是美丽的，
但变化无常更是美丽。

缘分将他们推近，驱离，
憋住笑声
阻挡他们的去路，
然後闪到一边。

有一些迹象和信号存在，
即使他们尚无法解读。有一晚，也许同样的梦，
到了早晨变得模糊。

每个开始
都只是续篇，
这情节多端的作品
都还只是看到一半。

Beautiful is such a certainty,
but uncertainty is more beautiful.

What of the streets, stairways and corridors
where they could have passed each other long ago?

chance had been playing with them.Not yet wholly ready
to transform into fate for them
it approached them, then backed off,
stood in their way
and, suppressing a giggle,
jumped to the side.

There were signs, signals:
but what of it if they were illegible.Perhaps they had the same dream on a certain night,
suddenly erased after waking.

Every beginning
is but a continuation,
and the book of events
is never more than half open.

Day 01: Perhentian Diving Trip

Hi, while waiting for my diving refreshment course to start at 4pm, so i am again lured by the power of technologies and got myself into the cybercafe here in Pulau Perhentian. Today is my 1st day in Pulau Perhentian. 5 hour trip from Kuantan lead me to the jetty, then another 45 mins of rocky ride across the sea.

Met couple of tourist from Omen and Holland… and I feel like i’m pretty much the only Malaysian around the island (exaggerated, but seriously, not many Malaysian tourist here).

Btw, my instructor is a cute Japanese girl… hehes ..Juju is her name :p

anyway, since it is 35 cents per minute rate for the internet, i need to type is a speeding bullet to save some bucks…

i’ll write more later, see u guys…

Viva Italia

It has been a week now since i’m back from Italy trip…come to think of it, i really had a good time there, resting and enjoying~

The trip started on 4th Jan 2006, just 2 days after my final exam…reached Rimini airport at noon and greeted by our trip guide, Olga Bari…then, we went straight to San Marino, which is somewhat a Fortress on the mountain…

My First impression in Rimini is that it is not very modern but rather a quiet town/city… first, our bus scroll through the town area where i saw some shops and houses. Mainly, it look like any town in Malaysia, but most houses here are Bungalow. It is quite green in Rimini and the weather is just nice. Cooling and nice.

Soon, our journey change into a more rural part of Rimini. In no time, our bus was flying through endless hills of crops. It is later told that Rimini people live on agriculture, so is many other parts of Italy. And they are world second large producer of olive oil.

to be continue…

Darkness Lurks in Every Corner

There was a time in life when I thought knowing all the RIGHT ANSWER makes you successful. Soon enough, I learned that one need to know the WRONG ANSWERS too. Making a wrong turn teaches you how not to stray off-course the next time.

Afterward, it becomes clear that even knowing all kinds of answer doesn't make any more successful either. It only makes you wiser.

Most people look at their achievement as measurement for Success. Yet, little realized that the essence lies in THE WAY you achieve such feats. As things appears to be, there is always an answer/ a solution. But there can be many ways to obtain them: the righteous ways, and the immoral ways.

As time pass, life changes. Nothing stay as innocent as they are before. There comes a time when your integrity is challenged. When you were made to choose which way u want it. Don't fret! If you see it the way I see it, it wasn't a hard choice. Unfortunately, most people are too obsess with the many things they are afraid to lose. Some crave for unrealistic fame, and that they sold their soul. They stray far from the path of righteousness in order achieve what they lusted. And naturally, they do get what they longed for… but perhaps, they are missing the point!

What makes me sad is to see people i once thought i knew gave in those temptations. Some do it even when they know it is wrong, some did it because others do it… "not like it is a big deal, everyone else is doing it" They defended. 

Eventually, it will hurt your conscious. You'll struggle but soon realized it is an inescapable box. Why? What's done is done. You can't possibly turn back time. Good thing is some is remorseful and choose to repent. Others simply accepted this dark-side and let it grew darker. Not enough that they want to achieve their goals in their wicked ways, they get jealous easily. They would hurt you every chance they get, every possible way there is.

Maybe it is the guilt that is killing them...